CHRIST MICHAEL & MOTHER SPIRIT NEBADONIA – MARCH
8, 2004
The evening began with a prayer/healing circle for one
of the group members.
Good evening, my beloved children. This is Michael. Thank
you for participating in the healing exercise for your sister.
Much of what you do in spirit will be hidden from your eyes
as the massive outpouring of human misery eventually leaves
the collective mind of this world. The suffering on Urantia
has been great, and yet there is meaning and purpose to all
of this. I ask you in these times of great change and transformation
to stay focused on the good you know is possible through our
Father’s love in you. All too often the tender human
heart feels overpowered by strong negative emotions, and your
suffering leads you to think you have been abandoned. But,
my children, never have your been abandoned. My love pours
out over this world. But the suffering of my children here
has masked the truth who each individual is. So my question
to you tonight is: are you willing to unmask my children from
their pain and to feed them with my light so their eyes can
be opened to the truth of who they are?
The forgiveness exercises that your Mother and I have imparted
to you paves the way for the unmasking of the suffering in
my children. That you are in fact the spiritual antenna for
my forgiveness to pour forth on the planet allows my children
to be fed with what they need to eventually free themselves
from their misery.
Tonight as before, I would ask you to picture in your mind’s
eye those individuals close to you who are in great pain and
in profound anguish and suffering in their body and mind.
See them in your mind’s eye. Sense your compassion and
then ask to feel a devotion to helping them overcome their
internal turmoil. When you are ready, invite me into their
being and ask me to heal them. Feel your desire for my healing
to predominate in the fullness in their being. Stay focused
on this as your Mother and I move through these individuals.
(Pause)
What this world needs now is me. Pure and simple, it is me
– my living essence of truth. When you focus my being
in one of my children, you nourish them with what they truly
need in the core of their being. You open the conduits within
your mind for my love to flow through you, expanding you as
you feel your passion for this individual to be healed grow.
As you heal by being a conduit, so are you in and of yourself
healed, for your mind is expanded and your being becomes filled
with love that pushes out any error or distortion or pain
that you might feel.
As you allow my living essence to come into these individuals
that you see before you, it is your desire – your expansive
wish for this person to be made whole – that will create
new channels of my love to flow through you and to nourish
both of you in this dynamic circuit of energy exchange and
healing. We have asked you to be planetary healers. You can
do this each day by bringing one other person to your Mother
and me for healing.
The other component of this exercise in selecting an individual
for healing: I would ask you to focus on someone who has caused
you pain, someone who has wounded you in a profound way. Ask
for the healing of this person as this will heal you in the
deepest layers of your being. When you feel the resistance
because you have been hurt by this individual, simply see
yourself standing in front of this person and invite me to
stand in between the two of you and to ask for my forgiveness
to flow into both of you. Do this now, my children. (Pause)
Allow your desire for my forgiveness to grow. Find your passion
for this as your Mother expands you to receive more of my
forgiveness to flow in to you. (Pause)
Now extend your hands forward into my being in your mind’s
eye. Allow my hands to blend with yours and to notice what
my hands and yours now do. (Pause) This is how we will heal
this world, my children. You will bring my beloved lost little
lambs to me and you and I will apply our love and make them
whole.
Now when you expand this exercise to heal a planetary situation
where there are groups of people who have been at historical
fraternal odds with one another, see these two groups standing
in front of one another and invite me to step in between the
two of them. Feel the desire for my love and forgiveness to
flow into each of these groups. Watch, as you desire my love
to enter into them, what it does to them in your mind’s
eye. Think of a group or one or two people who are at odds
with one another. It matters not if it is a large or small
group. Wherever there is contention between two individuals,
simply notice that in your mind’s eye. Center me in
between these individuals and simply ask for my forgiveness
to flow into these needy children. (Pause)
Bring these angry, fractious, rebellious children to me,
my beloved ones. These are your less developed brothers and
sisters. They need me to grow strong. They need the life breath
of their Mother to strengthen and nurture them. When you bring
them to me, you feed them. This is how we will heal our children
of this world. This is only one way, but it is an important
way and a significant endeavor that you can make that will
occupy your mind a manner that will liberate your thoughts
to the realm of Spirit and give you great satisfaction of
the joys of serving.
Tonight, your Mother is here to address your questions or
comments on this evening’s exercise. It has been a joy
to be with you here as I know you find it very helpful in
your own inner growth to learn these new ways and techniques
using your mind in a more productive manner. Speak freely
with your Mother about your concerns about this evening’s
exercise. She will clarify any ideas that you are unsure about.
Your efforts in healing in this manner are so well appreciated
and understood and accepted and honored. As I leave my mark
of peace upon you, know that my peace carries within it my
love and acceptance for the beauty of your being. You are
my child and my love for you is immeasurable. Good evening,
my beloveds.
My children, my precious little children. I am here with
you now, and I love you. Feel me, feel your Mother embrace
you. This is Nebadonia. You are such tender children in spirit.
The breath of my life force is ever growing in you. You can
never have too much of me. Ever and always will I be there
to quicken you in every needful moment of your life. You only
have to ask. Become accustomed to asking for my Spirit to
move through you. You need not hesitate or think you are asking
too often. You can never possibly ask too frequently. You
may need it from second to second, or minute to minute, or
hour to hour; but never hesitate to ask, my child. I am here
for you, for each one of you. So, ask now and receive. Become
more accustomed to feeling me move in you. (Pause)
When you ask to feel me, you are opening your mind to receive
my mind imprint upon yours. You will always get what you ask.
It may take some time for you to perceptibly appreciate what
is moving through you, but the more frequently you ask, the
more can I expand you and the greater you will feel me in
time. Ask; feel me move through you, beloved ones. (Pause)
I will give you a few moments to center your thoughts on
this evening’s exercise. I will address your comments
about this when you feel moved to speak to me.
Student: Dear Nebadonia, is it on the right path when we
try to exchange our mind for the mind of Jesus and your mind
too? To let our Thought Adjuster pilot us into that direction,
to swing us into these stronger currents of spiritual growth?
Nebadonia: Your mind is being engaged in a new way the more
you desire to follow the Father’s will. It is as if
you are arresting your own mental currents and allowing them
to be put into a higher stream of consciousness. You do this
by your choice – your desire. And the desire broadens
the stream and keeps you more fully anchored into it. As this
stream becomes broader and deeper, does your indwelling Father
Fragment move your streams of thought along to its eventual
destination which is the Father in Paradise. Do you understand,
my son?
Student: Yes, I do. Thank you very much.
Nebadonia: I wish to address your comments about the exercise
in particular of bringing your Father into your fraternal
relations where there have been contentions, and what you
experienced and what you need help in focusing upon and allowing
more of his healing to enter into the interpersonal relationship.
Student: I was working with my daughter and she taught me
about quaking; that quaking feeling that seemed to be like
a great teaching tool that seems to be very fair and democratic
between individuals. Could you comment on that please?
Nebadonia: How do you experience this quaking? What feeling
is there affiliated with it?
Student: It seemed to be like a welling up in my heart almost
like tears but a near certainty that this was the ideal spiritual
moment for maximum spiritual growth between individuals, maximum
love.
Nebadonia: Did it feel good to you?
Student: Yes, it did; profoundly so.
Nebadonia: Did it feel healing and completing in your being?
Student: Yes, it did and sort of a timeless element too.
Nebadonia: And did you notice that there was greater freedom
and joy expressed between the individuals?
Student: Yes, and less fear too.
Nebadonia: Stand firm upon this foundation, my son. Know
the validity of the experience within yourself. Heighten your
desire to sense more of this as your Father’s forgiveness
flows through you. And you will build this foundation within
yourself very strongly and will anchor you and move up your
being and make you this living foundation of love and forgiveness.
Does this answer your question to your satisfaction?
Student: Yes, very much so. And I will do that.
Nebadonia: And be in my peace, my son.
Student: Mother, in the specific focus in placing Michael
between the groups of warring folks, I just saw these two
sides in almost visual abstract terms, in the case of the
Israelis and Palestinians – they really didn’t
see each other. They were not seeing that particular woman,
that particular girl, that particular man. Because to do that
if we really see each other, it would be so overwhelming,
they would just break down. So that breaking down is a good
thing, even though it feels sometimes like a loss of control;
it’s an admission of feeling, a breaking up of a callousness
that has to come before we can feel and then maybe see each
other as individuals, so we are not setting off a bomb or
rocket at them over there, but we are hurting that man and
destroying the life of that little girl.
Nebadonia: In this exercise that we have engaged you in,
it does require that you bring in the individual or group
as persons as human feeling sensing beings. The groups that
you have acknowledged see each other in terms of ideologies:
they are the beliefs that each has held for centuries. And
yet underneath it, there is this raw humanness that is each
individual. So what you are doing is getting underneath the
belief system and allowing the forgiveness to flow into them
as individuals. You are creating new energy pathways that
will, in time, help these groups to recognize one another
as brothers of the same Mother and Father; as family members
in a very diverse family: that this person has this certain
set of understanding and that the other person has another
understanding, but beyond and beneath and above all else,
they are brothers in the same skin.
These groups will never embrace their humanness until the
forgiveness binds them together. As you practice this exercise,
you can share this with your brothers and sisters who want
the peace in this region of the world to prevail. Help them
to appreciate the beauty of their prayerful action that doesn’t
require a great deal of time; but it does require a soulful,
heartful desire to want this to happen. And in so focusing
on this simple exercise, they are creating more energy for
peace and forgiveness to eventually dominate this region.
Never underestimate your efforts in this. This is so vital
now as these groups will never be able to get beyond their
ideological differences until forgiveness is an integral part
of the healing. I thank you for your comments, this evening,
my son.
Student: Thank you, Mother. How precious it would be if more
of them could talk with you like this. This is so precious;
thank you, thank you.
Student: Mother, I had difficulty with the exercise between
myself and one other person. I seem to be unwilling to tackle
the world’s problems such as war if I am having such
trouble with only one person. The problem I was having with
that was all I could see were symptoms and barriers. I didn’t
see any opening for a healing to take place. All I could seem
to hope for was acceptance on my side, but without their willingness
to change, I felt at an impasse to even imagine the flow of
energy that could be taking place since their freewill was
adamantly behind a barrier. So I want to be filled with wisdom
and awareness and love. But I’m not sure that that really
can even reach other people as much as I hope it can. Therefore,
I hope that did not discourage my ability to experience that
for myself. How can we get that across to other people when
they are so set in their ways? I am fairly set in mine too.
Nebadonia: Are you willing to try this exercise again as
I speak to you? (Sure) Is there more willingness in your heart
now to forgive this person? Be honest about where you are;
there is no judgment. You do not need to answer to me verbally.
Ask me to come into you and to soften your resistance. (Pause)
Student: I find myself asking for wisdom. I reach a place
where I don’t care what they think about me or what
kind of slander or abuse I might take from them. I don’t
know where to go from there. But perhaps that’s sufficient
to have a level of acceptance about it. Of course I want to
help them.
Nebadonia: In your mind’s eye, can you see your Father
between the two of you? (I think so) Become firmly anchored
in this now. (Pause) Now invite him in and ask for his forgiveness
to flow between the two of you. (Pause) Would you care to
share your experience with your brothers and sister tonight?
Student: I felt a flow of truth and energy that felt like
a burden being lifted. I felt like that our destiny of being
two people was so far beyond that level of conflict. It felt
like a great relief. I felt humbled and yet also lifted up
in stature.
Nebadonia: Do you believe that you would find forgiveness
something spiritually significant for you to ask for each
day?
Student: Yes, totally! It would address many of my problems.
Nebadonia: When you feel your own inner resistance to forgiving,
call on me and I will breathe more interest and desire into
you. When you feel strengthened by this, simply invite your
Father in and allow him to bring both of you close together
in love and understanding. That is all you need to do, my
son.
Student: What a gift! Thank you.
Nebadonia: And be in my peace.
Student: Mother, one of the situations I brought forth was
the relationship between my daughter and her mother. It seems
to have gotten worse. When I did the exercise, I saw the two
of them and I saw the pain and anguish in them. One of the
things I keep on saying to my daughter is that your mother
is in a lot of pain and she feels she needs to hurt you in
order to heal herself.
But it is hard for me to not feel anger towards her mother
for what she is doing to my daughter. I was able to see that
she is a sad and lonely woman. I was able to see Michael and
the power of forgiveness come amidst them and saturate them
with his love and truth, and how he embraced them both.
Nebadonia: And my son, I ask you to embrace this woman as
you have created life with her. In order for the completion
of your daughter’s healing, she must know that her parents
have forgiveness flowing between them as well. Think of the
bond that you will forge with your daughter as she knows that
you are harbor no shred or speck of ill will toward her mother.
Student: You know I have tried to enlighten my daughter about
her mom and her mental instability. But the question I could
ask is: it’s hard for a child, even though my daughter
is 18, to forgive her parent if her parent keeps on doing
the same thing over and over to them. How can we expect a
child to forgive her parent if they are filled with so much
anger and frustration toward them?
Nebadonia: Your child will grow in spiritual maturity, will
she not? (Yes) And is it not your role as her father to help
her develop her spiritual potential? (Yes) So, if you harbor
any anger towards her mother, what will she learn from you?
(I understand) You are trying to teach her to be unconditionally
and infinitely loving and forgiving. She will be able to imprint
herself upon you. You must have your reservoir so open and
purified so that your daughter’s own sense of understanding
can feed upon a healthy source. And you do understand the
meaning of my words, my son. Feel the desire of your heart
to achieve this increased capacity within yourself. It will
only free you and give you greater range of emotional maturity
to feed to your daughter.
Student: Your words are so true. She feeds upon me so much
already.
Nebadonia: Make sure that the food she receives from you
is clean, pure, whole and good.
Student: You have my word. She has my word.
Nebadonia: And I honor your attempts to achieve this level
of forgiveness. It will serve you well all of your days, my
son. Be in my peace.
Student: Is all of life about forgiving? Is that what life
is – we come here to suffer and to forgive?
Nebadonia: The purpose of life is to love. That is why you
are here – to learn how to love. One of the components
of love is to appreciate another person. Sometimes that will
stretch your capacity to understand because a person’s
pain will cause them to act most unkindly, unfairly, and even
barbarously. But you, who have experienced moments of pain
and have unwittingly hurt people, would you not want to be
forgiven for every misdeed albeit unintentional? Would you
want to be judged or condemned for anything that you did not
truly understand what you were doing?
Student: I want to forgive and I want it to end. I don’t
want to be living just to forgive. I want the wisdom.
Nebadonia: But at the level of human suffering on this world,
forgiveness and understanding and compassion are integral
parts of loving. It is truly not separate from loving. Loving
is understanding all, accepting all, and compassionately embracing
all with a depth so profound that you will be stretched beyond
your own human limitations and understandings. Love is total,
unconditional understanding, merciful acceptance of where
another person is operating from in their own limited understanding
and emotional immaturity.
There is great suffering on this world. My children need
to be freed from this. And we are here to breathe our Spirit
of love through you, each of you, and the purity of your heart
to become infinite love expressions of our Creator in Paradise.
Is this asking too much of you? Each of you must decide in
your hearts if you have the capacity and strength. But you
will be given more fuel to propel you into this high level
of achievement of spiritual status as a love saturated healer
of this world. This is what this world needs. In doing this,
you will be healed; you will be expanded and given more love,
more peace, more joy so that you can feed your less developed
brothers and sisters. It must be shared, and when you put
your attention on the needs of others, you are fed and you
grow.
Student: Mother, I keep hearing the word: gratitude. Would
this be a tool, an antidote?
Nebadonia: Gratitude is a desire of your heart. Anytime your
desire aligns with the recognition of who you are as a child
of God, you open the door to increasingly receive more. Your
heart is a wide expansive sensing pulsating energy center
that receives the emanations of love coming from your Source.
When you feel this gratitude in your heart, you are opening
the door to receive your Source, and more love can flow into
you and expand your capacity to be grateful for all you have
been given. And it grows proportionately.
The human will resistance is very entrenched in our little
children of Urantia. Soften this in yourself and others through
my breath by inviting me to come into your being. The level
of what you have come understand as unconditional love has
no restrictions upon it. The human mind puts up certain levels
of qualifications that act as barriers to receiving the level
of love you desire so deeply in your soul. It is only by coming
into me and asking for my breath to soften these barriers
will you be able to yield the willful resistance in the human
mind and receive that which you desire so deeply.
Pray for your sister, for her mind to soften, for her own
inner resistance to yield. She is in deep turmoil and her
challenges are very great. Love her through your prayerful
attempts to bring me into her body and mind. She needs your
support at this time, my children.
My peace I leave upon you, and my breath will expand you
into new heights of love and forgiveness for yourself and
for your brothers and sisters. Good evening.
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