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MOTHER
SPIRIT -- SEPTEMBER 15, 2003
Good evening, my children. This is Nebadonia, your Spirit
Mother who speaks now. Like the little chicks who run to the
mother hen for safety and protection, so now come unto me
and I will safeguard you from all of the troubles that you
face.
Last
session your Father discussed the nature of disruption. And
you were brought into an experience to handle disruption with
more ease and with greater acceptance. For those of you who
were not in attendance, I wish to expand this exercise for
it is quite significant as more changes come to this planet—that
you would need to feel the stability of our protection within
you as you see these changes occur around you.
Take
a few moments to search your mind and to sense that true quality—that
emotional posture—that you hold within you about disruption.
Your honesty about disruption is key. I know you do not like
this, and it is perfectly acceptable to your Father and to
me that you would recoil at first at the idea of embracing
disruption. That is why we wish to help you tonight to gain
a greater foothold in stability so that you will see disruption
as a mere flash that comes and goes in your life and it does
not diminish your effectiveness or your composure.
So
find within you the irksome-ness that you feel about disruption
and when you have had enough of it call me in and ask me to
fill you with the peace of Michael. (Pause)
Ask
for His peace to overshadow any emotional disquieting you
feel regarding how disruption impacts your life. (Pause) Ask
for my essence to weave you into the truth embodiment of why
the nature of disruption is essentially positive. (Pause)
Go
deeper into your desire now to be steadied and peaceful and
when you feel the fullness of this desire, Michael will appear
in your foundation. (Pause) Now in your heart’s desire
for peace and stability, ask for this peace to flow outward
from you into your daily routine—projecting it into
the days and weeks to come, and asking for this stability
to carry you forward. Your Father and I will add something
into you now. (Pause)
Now
see in your mind’s eye an individual who is close to
you, and in projecting this peace outward invite them into
the peace of Michael, and allow this energy to compel them
in to the center of stability. (Pause)
Now
ask for this peace and stability to be woven even further
outwardly from you into the energy matrix of this world. Ask
for it to be directed into all of those pockets of conflict:
war, poverty, illness, suffering. Ask for this peace and stability
to strike at the very root of the causes of all of these,
and we will add something into this. (Pause)
Now
call forth from on high the love light from the very Source
and Center of Paradise to flow into the core of the woundedness
of this world to soothe all of the suffering, and we will
add something into that. (Pause)
My
children, hold your heads high in looking to the future—a
future that is rich with promise of the day when humans will
stand side by side as brothers and sisters of the cosmic family
of our Creator. We are preparing you for dynamic spiritual
service ministry that calls you to embody a point of stabilization
of Michael’s peace on this world. We have asked you
many times if you are ready to serve in this capacity. And
if you are willing to do so, then you must be the embodiment
of love and peace itself.
We
bring you these experiences so you can participate and allow
Michael and me to weave more of ourselves in you, to mold
you into that greater spiritual drawing power that will draw
your brothers and sisters to you for compassion and comfort.
Will you have opportunities to teach them? You may if they
ask. But more and more we ask you to hold out your arms and
to give a sympathetic hug or warm gaze to lift the spirit
of those around you when they falter in confusion and doubt.
Your
stability is so vital to this, for you will find many interruptions
that could easily detract you. But how much more enjoyable
and effective your day would be should you grow your capacity
to be stable, still, and peaceful. Would not your day seem
to be more effortless and joyful? And so you only have to
come to us and ask for our stabilization, and you will find
these disruptions in your daily routine not so troubling or
irksome, but a way for you to challenge yourself to grow more
stable and peaceful in us. I will now address your questions
on this topic of the evening, my children.
Student:
Mother Nebadonia, I would like to ask a question about the
seven adjunctive mind spirits, and how they relate to this
topic of peace and to embrace disruption in our lives. How
can we use these spirits to bring this about more fully?
Nebadonia:
You can hardly be consciously aware of these mind endowments
which have been placed within your being as a way for you
to grow your conceptual awareness and feeling sensitivities
of the Father-First Source and Center. In answering your question
with an intellectual answer, it would tend to diminish the
embodiment of peace that your Father and I wish to bring into
you that is more of what you need now to stay focalized in
deep and secure peace.
All
of those mindal endowments are a conduit that weave this peace
in and through you, and they all have their functional ability
to this effectively; most particularly when you invite my
presence and your Father’s presence into you for these
are the conduits through which are ministry flows. Do you
understand, my son?
Student:
Yes, that helps and I understand a little better. As I get
to know you more and learn more of your presence I wish to
use the text, The Urantia Book, and what I learn here tonight
to teach others about who you are and how you work in others.
That’s why I asked that question. It is a desire that
I have to teach others about this wonderful gift of knowing
you. Thank you.
Nebadonia:
All humans need love and compassionate understanding. Tell
them they have a Divine Mother who is able to weave this into
them. Tell them it is their privilege and their birthright
to come to me and I will reveal myself to whomever asks, and
it will be given fully and freely. But it must be each person’s
desire. Whet their appetite for the desire to feel this compassionate
understanding and tender devotion. It is in the yearning of
each soul on this world. If you are able to effectively stimulate
this desire, then you will have found a way to present me
to my children. Does this help? (Yes, thank you.)
Student:
Mother, since we last spoke last Monday about disruption and
even prior to that, there had been a sense of disillusionment
with the way things were and are in the people I see around
me and in my life and myself. That I wish to come from a place
of spiritual simplicity and clarity--clean. I desire to shake
off old belief systems and ideas that no longer work in my
desire to live the ideation of the Father as it unfolds naturally.
It
seems like over the past week I’m hanging by a thread
as I’m letting go of what was and allowing myself to
be open to what could be and what is right now. It’s
a very vulnerable place and my body has physically experienced
that release. It’s also affected my relationship with
my lady-friend, and that there’s a sense within me of
abandonment and not being loved, of not being seen or heard,
of not being important. And so as I sat here tonight, I felt
this whole surge of energy where I could hardly breathe. And
it came and kept coming, stopped, and came again.
I
gladly welcome the disruption because I know from my past
experiences, I open to greater experiences of who I am and
who I wish to be.
Nebadonia:
My dear son, the disruption you seek is the separation of
the transitory primal nature so that you may more fully embrace
your divine God-given self. It is a place of great vulnerability,
as you say. This slender thread that you sense within you
is very delicate and tender, and there are strong feelings
upon it that you sense. As you present this slender thread
to your Father and to me, ask us to add that which is our
nature onto it to absorb any of those less attractive qualities
of your primal being. Our nature grows within you. Layer by
layer you are growing a new self as the thoughts, ideas, feelings,
experiences and behaviors of following the Father’s
will gains greater depth and breadth in your consciousness.
It is safe to expose this slender thread to us, for there
is something within the primalness of this that comes from
the very source of all life, and we are adding only more of
what is beautiful and real onto it. So my son you are always
safe in this place of great vulnerability. Rest in us and
grow in the Father. Are you ready now for this, D?
Student:
Yes, there’s no turning back, is there? I’ve had
glimpses and tastes and I just want it to unfold naturally
and simply.
Nebadonia:
And it shall as it has ever been.
Student:
I just wish to say that I honor my ladyfriend, C, for her
patience and tolerance of me during these moments of very
high emotional acuteness. She helped me with my growth. I
hope to do the same for her.
Nebadonia:
You will be given many opportunities to serve those whom you
love to show them a deeper level of the Father’s love
through your devotion.
Student:
That is what I want. It does no good keeping it to myself.
Thank you.
Student:
(tape turned) Sacredness is a hard thing to appreciate in
times of blindness. I think of times I’m lost but it
all comes and goes and is okay in the end. Life is interesting.
Nebadonia:
My dear daughter, you are beginning to experience life with
a different set of eyes—your eyes of faith—in
being able to pierce through the shadows of confusion and
doubt; at times to view the greater reality of the love and
comfort and peace that is always present for you to nourish
yourself. As you transition between times of seeing life through
the eyes of the everyday material nature, be not disheartened
by the difficulty that you see. For this difficulty is only
a fluctuation of an unreal energy form that is casting a shadow
within your mind. Take your internal hand and wipe it away.
Ask for the clearer vision of Spirit perception to dawn upon
your conscious mind.
These
faith eyes must be exercised to grow strong, so that you are
then seeing life with a duality that you have found to make
it very interesting. When you sense this dual nature with
the diversity and the breadth of life, it will seem to be
fuller, richer, more vibrant with color and a sense of song,
because it will be full of various harmonies that weave a
new quality of God within your soul. It will strike a chord
within you and cause your heart to sing with appreciation
and wonder at all the fullness you experience. As you make
this transition from only seeing through the eyes of the material,
call on your Father and me to present the greater picture
of reality that will lend you this enhanced perspective. Your
mind is so open and young, and it still is virtually unspoiled
by the ravages of living. So now is an ample opportunity to
cultivate this faith perspective that will set you on a course
of an adventureful fearless life that blazes new spiritual
trails.
Student:
Am I allowed that? I don’t feel worthy.
Nebadonia:
Oh yes, worthy indeed. And not only worthy, this is your universe
privilege and responsibility to rise up and become all you
can be. For there is something so rich and compelling within
you that will not settle for anything than becoming the best.
You sense this at times, dear one. And yet you also sense
the shadows. But they are not real; they are only the fluctuations.
Find your desire to become the best you can become. Find that
compulsion, as it were, to strive to achieve and let that
sing forth from your soul like a song offering it to Creator
to say: “This is my gift of myself to you. Help me to
achieve this.” And God will, step by step, help you
achieve all that is in your heart that is truly good and beautiful
and wondrous.
Your
worth and value are immeasurable, as is the worth and value
of each child in the universe. Devaluation has taken a heavy
toll on the human heart. But as we say to you as your parents
who love you beyond your comprehension, it is not so. It simply
is not so. You are so dearly loved and intrinsically valuable
to the universe for you are a part of the universe; a piece
of the very essence of God. That is YOU! What could be of
higher value than this? That is YOU! That is each one of you.
Let your Father and I weave this more into your mind, and
I say this to all of you now. Breathe in your value, let it
fill your lungs and swell within your hearts. (Pause)
Student:
The thing that keeps wanting to roll off my tongue is to love
to live and to live to love. To love to live and to live to
love.
Nebadonia:
Let that become your special motto, C, and carry it deep within
you all the days of your life. (Pause) My children, bring
me your questions or concerns about disruptions you encounter.
I am here now to add more comfort into you.
Student:
Mother, I’m not sure I see a disruption as a disruption.
I think what disruptions are are an essential part of growth.
I don’t always recognize as being that. Sometimes they
are just an annoyance, or I don’t want to do it. Sometimes
I just plain don’t see it. I wonder how I can look at
them and recognize them for what they are.
Nebadonia:
When you sense a disruption are you willing to notice how
you feel in your body? (Yes) Then when you feel this disruption
reverberate in your body, call on your Father and call on
me and ask us to bring that peace and stability into you.
It is not so much that you notice the disruption as important
as to notice how you feel internally when this occurs. For
it is in feeling the disruption that destabilizes your equilibrium,
does it not? (Yes) What is more valuable to your well-being
is to be able to capture that feeling within your body of
disruption—to harness it—by calling in our peace.
And then the outward manifestation of the disruption will
not seem so important. Do you understand the distinction I
am making here?
Student:
Not exactly, would you explain it again. I’m not quite
sure what a disruption is.
Nebadonia:
What I am suggesting is that you do not try to sense or see
a disruption, but to notice how you feel internally when you
sense that this dis-equilibrium occur within your body. Do
you understand now, my son?
Student:
I’m beginning to.
Nebadonia:
Pay close attention to how your body responds during the day—if
you sense a greater feeling of slowness in your movement where
you are not rushing about. If you feel that rushing around
is a sense of dis-equilibrium, would that not be a disruption
then in your life? (Yes) And if you sense a feeling of confusion
or uncertainty, would that not be considered a disruption
as well? (Yes) And so, when you notice these, what is it that
we are asking you do to?
Student:
Call you and Father in to smooth the disruption to be at peace.
Nebadonia:
There you have it! Do you understand now, my child?
Student:
Yes, Mother, thank you. What a great tool.
Nebadonia:
My little ones, you all have such busy and sometimes frenetic
lives. This is the way of your culture at this point in your
history. But we are teaching you to come to us and to find
the superior way of handling your lives’ challenges.
And as one who walked among you who excelled and achieved
the highest degree of Father-consciousness, your father-brother
Jesus is the example for you to look to and ask for greater
understanding from a human perspective to find greater tools
to master daily life.
All
of your life will be a challenge. It is part of your intrinsic
nature; you cannot, will not ever be separated from this quality
of overcoming challenges—facing them head on, asking
for help, and being guided through them. Disruption is a necessary
and vital component of life that will compel you to seek and
to handle challenges with greater spiritual and divine aplomb.
We can only encourage you; you must spend time within to find
your own desires for this. And when you have come to a fuller
appreciation of the nature of disruption and challenge, you
may call your Father and me into your being to take you that
next step. But you must first recognize within you that this
is a vital component of your life.
Will
you do this for us, so that we may help you in turn? (Yes)
We ask these things of you because we know what greatness
lies deep within you. You must exercise that deep faith to
stir the creative juices and potential within you for this
to become manifest: all of the love, all of the peace, all
of the patience and goodness that you desire will be achievable
and is achievable bit by bit, faith step by faith step, holding
our hands as we walk you through life—abundant life,
full life, eternal life. Good evening, my beloved ones.
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