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Michael
– January 13, 2003
This
is Michael, your Creator-Father. Welcome to another night of sharing
our relationship of coming into my bosom, and being with me as I
accompany you through your journey through life. I ask you now,
what is it that you need from me? Last week I asked you to go into
that place where you were retaining feelings of doubt or any feeling
that invalidates your sense of self.
What
have you experienced during the week that you have noticed as a
consequence of releasing this doubt to me? What is it that I can
clarify in your mind and in your heart now about going into those
innermost secret places of yourself, and letting them go? There
is a great tension in the mind between that which is and that which
is becoming more Father-like. The evolutionary self does not yield
itself easily to the alignment of the Inner Spirit – the fragment
of the Father within.
Find
that place of inner turmoil that is still giving you trouble; share
with me the struggle you have had with it so I may accompany you
through this and insert my presence within it to help you gain your
freedom from it. Spend a few moments in accessing that now, and
bring that to me in your request for me to help you with this.
This
will be a night of both discussion and experience for as I advise
you, there is also the concomitant release in spirit. So be still.
Find that which is troubling you, and then bring that to me. And
each person will have an opportunity to share if you are so willing.
(Pause.)
Student:
Hello, Michael, this is R. and I find myself willing to share tonight.
Last week at this time I was not. And I perceived a difficulty in
understanding the exercise of using the word doubt, and may have
had some success in the process, although I didn’t participate,
for a change, in the discussion. There have been some interesting
things going on in the past seven days, and they may have a direct
connection to last week, so that’s what I want to speak on
now.
The
concern I have relates to my New Years resolution, which was to
achieve adjuster fusion mindedness. And I recall you indicated that
would involve being presented with a lot of opportunities to grow;
perhaps you used the word challenges? And there are several things
going on now. One is the physical health factor. There’s also
the fiscal health factor. And there’s a communication connection
between me and you, me and the Father, and me and the Mother. So
those are the three that I would like to get some help on tonight.
Regarding
physical health, I’ve noticed over the last few days feeling
pretty achy. I’m in a new regimen of physical healing with
a specialist doctor, and I suspect that this is part of the process
of further cleansing and purifying as you had said was going to
happen. So I’m proceeding with that.
The
fiscal one was, over the weekend I found myself awake for quite
a few hours, and in the stillness I came to the realization that
I can no longer go on in the way that I was financially. I have
not been generating income on any kind of a regular basis –
even a minimal income. It’s very, very spotty. So I made a
decision that that it would not continue that way. As a result I
did get an idea, checked it out today and I was offered a job starting
tomorrow. It’s a position that I’ve done before, so
I know exactly what’s involved, and I know that I can do it.
I know that even though it’s relatively minimal income, I
can handle it and it doesn’t interfere with any of my existing
activities.
So
that’s moving along, and that gives rise to the third point,
which is a question I really want to get a good result on. And that
is: I’m asking you, and I’m asking the Father, and I’m
asking the Mother various things, and I cannot often perceive a
response; or I get a response and I don’t know if it’s
truly coming from you, or the Father or the Mother. So I don’t
have the certainty, which I know that I need in progressing to the
next level of ministering. So I’m asking tonight for you to
assist me in gaining that connection where I have the certainty
that doubt or the other variations on that are truly just not there
any more. And that the kind of certainty that I can have is lot
like Rob Crickett talks about – studying the material on “Walking
in Financial Blessing”. And I want to follow through on that.
So, those are my three parts, and particularly the question really
is: How do I get that connection with you, and how do I hear it
back from what is the will of the Father? Thanks!
Michael:
My son, you are asking for specific, concrete awarenesses of My
presence within you, and of your Mother, and of the indwelling Adjuster
as your Paradise guide. And I say to you that you must be patient,
and allow the natural machinations of your mind to release the old
habit of thought extrapolations, and bringing in the new ideas of
how We would like your mind to operate. This is something that you
cannot will or achieve just by asking. Your mind has a way of responding
that has its own timeline. It is a matter of spending as much time
and heartfelt devotion in stillness that you will achieve a deeper
experiential anointing of our presences within you. Your sincerity
to feel our love is what will open these doors in your mind even
further.
In
order for you to gain the trust required to overcome doubt, it is
imperative that you feel our love for you, thereby allowing yourself
to trust where you are being guided without words by taking those
first unsteady steps of faith in where you are being led. Then as
you gain more confidence in this, your ability to trust further
calms your mind. It steadies your emotions. And that is what will
indeed make your mind more receptive to direct communication. Do
you understand my meaning now, R.?
Student:
Yes I do, very specific, very precise, very compassionately expressed.
I feel gratitude within me, and I’m allowing that gratitude
to grow in alignment with your encouragement.
Michael:
My son, more that anything, I would like you to experience my love
for you. Allow this to occur. Open yourself. You are deserving of
this. You are my child. I wish to embrace you, and hold you close
in that bond that we share together. Will you allow me into your
heart? Will you allow me to give you my fatherly affection? (Absolutely
– yes!) More than anything else, this is what will stimulate
your growth. Everything else pales in comparison to you now being
in that state where you ask to receive the love of the Parents who
are devoted to you. Have you any other questions, my son?
Student:
I want to thank you for the clarity that I’m experiencing
now of not being in spiritual orphanhood anymore, because I realize
more clearly and deeply than I was able to before that that’s
what I was living in. And the other question, if it’s really
a question, I think it’s just gonna come in time, and that’s
just the idea of how will I know for sure that I’m hearing
you. And you basically answered it when you indicated that the most
important aspect is just to allow myself to fully feel the love
that you and the Father and the Mother have. And so that really,
actually answers my question from what you already said.
Michael:
Let yourself feel loved every day. There is no limit. I never withhold
my affection for you, and you only have to ask. In time you will
feel more, and you will grow safe and secure in this love. And what
we speak to one another will resonate, not only in your mind, but
in your heart and in your entire being. Be in my embrace. And be
in my peace. (Thank you, Father.) (Pause) We are ready to continue.
Student:
I guess, Michael, I have been perplexed about my friends who have
come up with me and being Buddhists and more pagan faiths, if you
can call them faiths. I am disappointed in my own inability to articulate
the wonders of your love and reality. And I also feel I’m
not able to delicately and deftly tiptoe around people’s belief
systems while leading them to a higher reality to truth. Do you
have any comments that might help me?
Michael:
My daughter, your enthusiasm to share my life, my peace, my truth
with your brothers and sisters is so commendable that I find no
fault with your intention. So I ask you not to find fault with your
inability to be, as you say, effective in sharing these truths with
them. Can you let that go? (Sure.) Can you really let that go?
Student:
Well, I can’t let go of the enthusiasm. I can live with the
ignorant and inarticulate, and being ineffective, I guess.
Michael:
It is not that you are ineffective; it is that you perhaps are still
looking for the right avenue into their souls. There are within
each individual places of receptivity and places of obstacle, are
there not? (Yes.) And so, in order for you to find that place of
receptivity, what do you think it would entail upon you to find
that within them? (Identifying with their fear?) If you identify
with their fear, you might focalize it and make that more pronounced
within their mind that they may not be able to overcome that. (OK)
What other way do you think could be an effective avenue?
Student:
I think it would be more effective if I were more knowledgeable
about say the Hindu and Buddhist traditions, so that I could intellectually
address their concerns or their issues.
Michael:
And, my daughter, I am saying to you that an intellectual approach
is not what will appeal to their spirit; it will appeal to their
mind. But where does the Spirit of Truth resonate? Within their
soul. So you must find that avenue into their soul. What is the
avenue into a person’s soul? (Love?) Yes, and? (Truth?) Compassion,
understanding.
Student:
But I don’t understand how anyone can love Buddha?
Michael:
And perhaps that is a question to ask them. Let them share with
you the reality of their religious experience. Let them reveal the
extent of their longings – of their desires of what they feel
within their heart. Do you not recall how I ministered to people
in my life in the flesh, and let them speak what was on their mind?
I asked them questions to draw them out of themselves, and I made
a point to get to know them, and to provide that safety in that
environment where they could feel they were unburdening themselves
without judgment, without correction. And then what did they end
up doing? (Questioning you.) And so it is.
And
so, my dear daughter, why would this be any different for you? (Laughs.
As I’m not as smooth as you, but I’ll work on it.) But
you have access to my mind. (But I move too fast.) And this is where
you get to overcome this disappointment because you will learn to
move at a different pace by asking me to accompany you into the
conversation with these individuals. And to allow me to use the
enthusiasm that you have to slow you down into the realm of patience
and understanding so that you can let them share with you. And then
when that point comes where the tables are turned, then you will
be able to release all your enthusiasm in a way that will open and
go right into that avenue, because they will have been properly
prepared. Do you understand this now? (I do! I’ll take this
into consideration. Thank you.) And you must practice this many
times.
Do not expect to be so eloquent as to become mastering or perfect
at this. But, dear daughter, do ask me to be with you and to allow,
as much as you can, your receptivity to be open to my words so that
you can be, as you say, as smooth as I was. (Hearty laughter. OK,
I’ll remember that. Thank you.) And above all else, be gentle
with yourself, for you have this tendency to be critical and harsh.
And never – never – would I discourage you from sharing
your words of truth because you are, what you perceive to be, less
than perfect at it.
Have
you any other concerns weighing on you? (No.) Open your heart now.
Open your mind and let yourself feel my mind in yours so that you
know when I am present within you, so we are participating together
as you minister to my children. (Pause.) When you begin to converse
with them, take a moment to ask for that Spirit of Truth to be opened
within them, by asking for my presence within them to yield within
their mind and within their soul to the Spirit of Truth. Do you
think you can do this? (I can!) Thank you. Let us continue.
Student:
Dear Jesus, on Thursday we were asked through Welmek to be almost
like emboldened to be a hundredfold more productive or effective
in our outreach now. I’ve been lucky to work in the background,
and I was comfortable with that. I’m a little stuck as to
how to use your controlled enthusiasm, and steady skills and to
unfold the wings of the eagle, like to be emboldened to be a hundredfold
more productive. And I would appreciate any help with that.
Michael:
My son, I note with your request the sincerity of your devotion
and your desire to serve. The use of the word productivity lends
a slight impersonal approach in dealing with your brothers and sisters.
By that I am speaking to the enthusiasm within you that would tend
to overwhelm or over-enlighten the other person, and perhaps confuse
or startle someone. Do you understand my meaning by this?
Student:
Yes, I’ve noticed that off and on. And I know that you never
used psychological tricks, and I would appreciate the taming of
that.
Michael:
Can you in your own heart just find the place within you that would
simply like to be a friend, and not give so much, and enjoy that
individual? For that individual may in turn be able to teach you
something as well.
Student:
I do understand that concept. Thanks
Michael:
But do you feel that concept? Do you understand what it means to
be a friend – not to necessarily expect to give anything or
to receive – just to enjoy who that other individual is, what
that individual is about, what that other person feels inside of
them of gladness or of woe, and not trying to fix or correct, but
just to accept, and to let them share with you who they are? Can
you feel what this may entail within you as I speak now?
Student:
I think I do. It’s like the chumminess that you had with the
apostle John that I’ve been good at with complete strangers.
I think that’s what you mean?
Michael:
Find that place now within you that can just enjoy a person without
trying to be a great disciple. Come into that place where you have
only the desire to love that individual – just to love that
individual – to accept, to cherish, to feel who that individual
is. Nothing more.
In
so doing this, each time you meet someone new the way which you
minister my presence to them will give you that sense of satisfaction
that you so sincerely seek in being effective as a worker in the
kingdom. My son, there are so many ideas to share with people and
to talk, but truly what your world needs now is to experience love
– to create those bonds of understanding and compassion between
people. And sometimes words are not important. You do not need them
to share love.
When
you begin to minister to another person, ask me to help you find
that place of understanding within you that will open the bond between
individuals that connect them at the spiritual level. When you do
this you will increase your effectiveness one-hundredfold. Can you
sense this now within you – what this feels and means in my
words to you?
Student:
Yes I can. It’s similar to what we were learning about praying
for people – even praying for strangers, and I’m starting
to see that and be quite comfortable with that. Thank you.
Michael:
Let this awareness go deep within. Let it become a part of you.
More than anything for you, I desire your effectiveness to increase.
For you and I have many souls to bring into the Father’s family.
You will be amply assisted (tape ends)..to be in that place of simple
understanding and love. I enfold you in my understanding and love.
(Pause.) Let us continue.
Student:
Michael, my Father, when I speak to you during the day, in my moments
of stillness, and just during my daily activity, I sense or hear
an answer, and I’m trusting that to be you. And I’m
acting on what I hear. I’m acting on it financially, and in
financial decisions, as you know. I’m acting on it with my
children, with my wife. I would like some reassurance. I guess;
it’s like a young child always tugging on its parents to know
that what I sense to be your answer, that it is truly you that I
am hearing in my mind, and not just my mind playing tricks on me?
I do sense your presence now, as I sense it in stillness. I sense
the Mother’s presence now. I hear her speak to me, sometimes.
I guess I need to be able to trust what I hear more, and know that
it is you speaking. So that’s my concern, my question. And
I do have one other that I’d like to ask before we’re
finished.
Michael:
My son, your mind has not yet reached that level of mastery where
you are able to detect my voice correctly at all times. And so I
ask you, are you fearful of making mistakes and having errors in
judgement? (Yes, I am.) You are not expected to perfect. You are
not required to attain full mastery. You are only required to try.
The fear you have inside of you of making mistakes will cause you
to freeze inside, and it will stunt your growth. For it will create
much consternation and foment great doubt and cause you to doubt
yourself.
It
is important now that you recognize that the mistakes that you are
going to be making in your judgement are correctable. And they are
a necessary part of your experience now for you to be able to gain
a better sense of what is happening within your own inner longings,
as opposed to what it is that my will has in store for you. What
is so difficult about making mistakes that cause you this fear?
I want you to find that now.
Student:
I’ve made some financial decisions on what I thought was your
answer to my question, and which can cause some financial loses.
And I was hoping to be able to tithe what the profits from these
decisions. And I was hoping to have your help with this. And I guess
the fear is if what I perceived to be your answer was not you, then
I’m putting myself at great financial risk.
Michael:
The risk that you are placing yourself in is not necessarily financial
as it is in self-deception. For you must be aware of what is truly
important to me is your faith in where you are being led, and not
necessarily in the area of helping you to achieve greater financial
prosperity just because the proceeds would be going to a good cause.
You
must, in time, learn how to separate your desires from your faith
and what my will is for you. Financial losses, I understand, will
cause you some concern, but I am more concerned about the spiritual
gains that you will make when you learn from these valuable lessons.
And it is important that you begin to ask that my will be dominant
in your life, and be less concerned with what it is that you want
to do at this point. Your are still a very, very, very young child
in spirit. And if you truly wish to have that trust and the level
of communication with me, then it is very vital that you trust what
my will is for your life, and for your family, and for your ways
to be of service to your brethren. This requires you to be in that
place of learning and of asking in every moment that you can: it
is not my will but Your will be done. Can you do this, and do you
understand how deeply impacting this is now in your inner life?
Student:
I felt that I was doing that Michael. I was daily asking that not
my will but the Father’s will be done. But I understand what
you’re saying, and it is becoming clear to me that perhaps
my own will is still dominant in my actions.
Michael:
There will be a time when your desire and your actions are not one
hundred percent harmonized, and there is no shame or judgement on
this. It is only to point out to you the distinction that you are
leaning in your own mind of letting go of what you perceive needs
to occur, and letting the Father’s will prevail in all instances.
The co-creative nature of what you are trying to do is important,
and your thoughts and your interests are important, but let me and
let your Father in Paradise guide you and show you how to bring
those qualities and interests that you have more in line with truth,
and the reality that you need to actualize within you. Does this
shed more light on your mind, and in your soul as I share these
words with you?
Student:
Yes it does. It makes me, in a sense, feel I’m just a very,
very immature child with a lot of growth needed.
Michael:
But inherently lovable. (Laughter. Well I’m glad there are
some good characteristics or qualities.) But let yourself accept
your immaturity, for this is truly the only way to master where
you are. You will outgrow this just as you outgrew your childhood
and your adolescence and your early manhood. But you could not change
where you were in childhood or adolescence by mere acts of will.
Those potentials in your physical body needed to develop and gradually
lead you into the next phase of your development. And so for your
spiritual development as well.
Letting
go more now of what you perceive needs to be done and allowing my
will in your life to prevail more will take you into that realm
of walking in faith; not knowing or seeing where you are going,
but letting the experience grow strong and lead you into greater
soul maturity. Accept where you are. Accept your mistakes and you
misperceptions, and use this to gain greater experience.
Student:
I will most certainly do that Michael. You know my love for you.
Michael:
Be in that place now of accepting. Feel where you have or still
harboring these feelings of immaturity, and I will shed my love
on them. For I love every part of you that which you have yet to
develop; that which you see as immature. (Pause.) Let us continue.
Student:
Yes Michael. Since last week, last Thursday, when Welmek was speaking
to me about allowing the Father’s love to come through me
and to see the Father’s love in others, I have been really
allowing that experience to be manifest and actualized and really
experienced in my day-to-day life. And I noticed how when I allow
myself to be in this place, how my agenda falls away, how I see
people in a different light, how I see myself, how I feel about
myself and others. It seems like any anxiety or tension –
any resentment or animosity – any unsavoriness falls away,
drops, and ceases to exist. And I noticed over the past few days
a level of agitation beneath the surface of my psyche, and it seems
like a strong part of who I am wanted to be totally in this place
of the Father’s love of who I am, and who each and everyone
of us are. And this is how I wish to live in each moment. Any anxiety
or turmoil I feel seems to dissipate. And I feel my being transforming,
in a sense, transmuting; changing. Old desires are falling away,
new insights are opening up.
I
still feel certain anxieties for my children, for their own wellbeing
and safety. But even then, I know they are being led towards their
own self-actualization and wonders with the Father.
Michael:
My son, what is it that you want most from me?
Student:
I was thinking about this today. And what is it that you want from
me? What is my next step or opening up in my unfoldment? I guess
to live as you lived on this planet? I guess to experience that
certainty of the Father with me and everyone else?
Michael:
Where do perceive you are being held back within yourself? Let my
light of truth go deep within you now, and find those places where
you feel that unsavoriness and let it shine on that. You may not
yet be able to see what that is, and it is not as important as just
being truthful in wanting the light to shine within. Admitting to
the unsavoriness within you brings no mark of shame. You need not
fear any reprisals in letting this be uncovered within you. Your
desire to live in the state of the Father’s grace and love
and ever ministering that love to others is the desired state of
your existence. And it will be the natural state of your existence
at all times in the future. But in accessing the Sprit of Truth
within - in your thinking - in your consciousness you are able to
purge all of that which you still find within you that you care
not for. Feel this truth. Feel my love go deep within you. Anchor
this truth in your desire to be rid of this unsavoriness.
The
Father’s Light shines deeply within you now. In the coming
days, let yourself be in this deep internal excavation of all the
dark places. Shine His light. Feel His love. Feel my Spirit of Truth
opening you. You will be freed, but you must be patient and allow
that which is occurring in you to reveal itself in the normal and
natural fashion. Be in my peace, my son. Let us continue. (Long
pause.)
My
children, I invite you to share more of your day with me. I am ever
present in your minute to minute activities should you be so willing
to focus your gaze upon me, and to ask for my influence to overshadow
your life. No detail of your life is too small or insignificant
for me to share. I ask you to be more considerate of this. Your
growth is so important and significant. I know how difficult it
can be to turn your gaze inward throughout your busy day. But use
these words as a reminder that I am ever present with you. Each
breath you take, each sigh, each thought is already known. All of
you need to do is ask me to be with you, and I will escort you through
the difficult tasks of daily life, and help you attain that joy
and happiness and satisfaction you crave deeply within you. Feel
my love my children as I take my leave. My words will end but my
presence lingers. We are never separate. Good evening.
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